God!

I have spent the whole week pondering the point of my existence, and more importantly the reasons why the world is currently such an evil crock of shit place to be. Its like real life is being experienced from two different sides; on one side we have the harsh reality of life being experienced in the Lebanon, Iraq, Africa etc where the name of the game is purely to struggle against extreme adversity to survive, and on the other we have the consumer frenzied "La La Land" of the West where "real life" involves a shitty call centre job followed by buying £800 worth of shit you don't need on the credit card before the train ride home.

Have the two halves of the world ever been so diametrically opposed?

Can there really be a god in these circumstances, with one half of the world exporting misery and hardship in return for meaningless trinkets we just throw away and fossil fuels that are giving us cancer?

I have therefore devoted a lot of time this week on whether there really could be a god, and if so what the fuck is he playing at?

Religion it has to be said is evil. In fact it is a statement of fact that all religion is evil, because all religions follow doctrine, and if you do not subscribe to the doctrine then you are the enemy. If you are the enemy, then you're fair game for either extinction or conversion (they don't tend to mind which) and you deserve it.

I'm guessing that if there is a god he's probably laughing at all those people following doctrine, because what example do any of the so-called religious amongst us set to humanity?

Bomb in the name of freedom
Incite seperation and hatred
Create prejudice and mistrust
Educate to colonise
Develop to conquer

They are all fairly dishonourable principles carried out in the name of "god".

Doctrine is easy to follow. It requires no thought. It requires no intellect. It requires no freewill.

Could a god exist that would expect that only the simple-minded, and the inept to be worthy followers?

No.

So where does that leave me?

To be fair I don't really know; I thought I had all the answers and then "bang" they went again. But I can't believe that if there is a god he would be pleased at murder in his name, or death, rape, pilage or subjegation as a catalyst for intellectual enlightenment. I can't believe that he wants to blow aeroplanes out of the sky, or cluster bomb children, or innihilate villages and schools, or blow up people on buses, or injure and maim the old or the infirm.

The things that we do in the name of religion, prove without a shadow of a doubt that religion has nothing to do with god, or peace, or decency and is more to do with power, and control and money and wealth.

"Imagine no religion ... its easy if you try"

I think I'll go away and have my breakdown in peace now.